Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Finally What You've All Been Waiting For!

Okay okay okay.
I know I've been bad at putting up photos, so here they are. But these ones are from the Dominican Republic and more exciting than my last bunch.
The main thing that I learned was how to rest. It seems like resting is something that I seem to think that I'm good at, but then I always realize that I really am not. A few weeks before I left for the trip, I was complaining to one of my roommates Ashley that I wouldn't be well rested until a month later (after going on the trip). She laughed and half-jokingly said that I would find plenty of rest in the DR. Man was she right!
We were driving into the town of Jarbacoa (Har-ba-coh-ah) and I happened to look out the window to my left. On the plane ride, I was wondering why specifically God wanted me to go on the trip (a probing question from Ashley again) and was a bit disappointed in myself for not necessarily knowing. But when I glanced out the window, I knew right then and there. I saw nothing out of the ordinary, simply a horse grazing in a green field. Psalm 23 immediately flashed in my mind:

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside still waters, he restores my soul.


This is why I was there: to rest. And that is what we did.
Dominican culture is very slow. Things happen when they happen and there seems to be no reason for anyone to ever rush. It is okay if class starts 10 minutes late because the mothers of the preschoolers probably will be late picking them up anyway. The roads are bad at the very best, and most of the time you are lucky if the road you are driving on has half of its pavement left, if any at all. You can blame the tardiness on those, I guess.
I worked at a preschool in a town called Los Higos. All of the 12 students were sponsored in order to attend. The school was a recent addition to the town; it had just opened up in January and the results were already pouring in. The students who had just finished the semester (January to May) who were ready to go onto the public school were on average testing at first or second-grade reading and writing levels. By preparing the children of the poverty-stricken rural town for the primary grades, Students International helps to break the cycle of illiteracy and be able to send the children to the equivalent of an American high school or university.
They start off each day with the singing of the national anthem, a review of their letters and numbers, and a prayer. Class ensues for an hour, then recess for thirty minutes, another lesson for an hour, then lunch and siesta. A mother of one of the students would come in each day to cook a basic lunch of rice, beans, and either plantains or chicken. Then after lunch was finished, the kids would go inside and lay down for a nap for an hour. Then class would resume for about another hour, and then it was time to go home. After the children left, we had an hour before we needed to be back on the base, so we would go to a neighbor's house for Dominican coffee. This was not your normal cup o' joe. It was about three ounces of coffee and 5 tablespoons of sugar drunken from a very small cup. Delicious, but you are only allowed one cup at a time.
We would get back to the base around four o'clock and have free time until dinner. Then we would have some sort of night activity. We had "team time" about three times; there was a culture night in which we learned meringue and a cup passing game called Don Ramon; a night on the biblical view of poverty and the appropriate response to it.

Here are my top five photos with short explanations:

This is Waldy, fondly know as the "One-Toothed-Wonder." He was a brother of one of the little girls in our preschool and hung out with us all the time. A little ball of energy, he did have more than one tooth. What had happened was this-he had lost both of his front teeth (as young boys often do), and only one of them had grown fully in. The other one was slowly creeping out. We looked forward to seeing him every day. This picture captures his playful essence beautifully!



This is post-naptime hair. Gabbi and Vivianna style.




We got to go out to dinner on Saturday, and we opted to go to ice cream afterward at Splash. Ruby had parked herself on this carousal pony type thing that you put pesos into and it takes you for a little ride. While she had her back turned and was talking to the girls on the bench, Kali, Rob, and I conspired to get this thing to work while she was on it. We tried so hard! We shoved in peso after peso, but to no avail. The thing was broken! It was fun anyway.



Fridays are a half-day at the preschool, and so the intern from the Kid's Club invited us to go to the river with them.
"The river is suck. You cannot swim." This is what one man told us before we left for the river. What he was trying to say was that the river was dirty. The Spanish word for dirty is sucio; so homie thought that if he just took off the io at the end of the word, the correct English translation would magically appear. We got a good laugh out of that. It was a great hike and we got to swim in the crisp water. The boys started a mud-slinging fight in order to entice us to get in. This is before they turned on us.



And, of course, our wonderful team. Here we are at training, about five weeks before we left. We are comprised of students and leaders from Sonoma State, San Francisco State, Chico State, and Santa Rosa Junior College.



For more fun photos, look at these two (!) slide shows:



Monday, June 22, 2009

Here Are Some Photos!

Here are pictures from Bay to Beakers, graduation, and the InterVarsity Camp.



Hope you have fun looking at them!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Its Been a While

Hello Friends!
I'm sorry that it has been so long since I've posted last; my life has been practically insane in all areas. Here is a rundown of what has happened in the past, well, six (?) weeks:
1) Three friends and I ran Bay to Breakers, the race through San Francisco the day before finals week started. For me it wasn't that bad, since I only had one final this semester.
2) My last finals week happened! It was nice not really having a lot to do for myself, I helped out some friends and edited a whole bunch of final papers. I think within the last two or three weeks of school I helped edit/inspire about 80 pages of writing! Ah, it was wonderful.
3) InterVarsity had something called jouRney, a week long camp in which students get together and study the book of Mark for seven hours a day. They do it in two sections, Mark I and Mark II. I helped lead a table group for Mark I, part of my first official IV Intern duties!
4) I said adios to two of my dear friends and roommates, Danielle and Emily. They are getting married later this summer and moved off to their prospective new homes. Blessings upon them!
5) I spent two weeks in the Dominican Republic co-leading a mission trip with my good friend Rob. Another InterVarsity inspired trip, there were 14 students under our care and it went great! More about this adventure later.

At the moment, I'm quite tired and will figure out sometime soon how to do these fancy slideshows when I am more awake. The DR photos will be on a separate post so that I can tell more about the trip as well.

Until later,

Tamsen

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

A Trip Down Memory Lane

Tonight at 5:00 I take my very last final of my Undergraduate Study at Sonoma State University. Its in Early American Literature.

In keeping with the tradition of putting off studying until the very last possible moment, I will pause and reflect on some highlights of my past four years at Sonoma State.
Freshman Year:
I moved in with 7 complete strangers and became great friends with all of them. By far, Freshman year has been the best year of my life so far. My bedtime went from 10:00 PM to about 1 or 2 AM, my diet went from mom's home cooking to fatty and salty caf food. I learned that it was important to study when a professor told you to, and that class may be "optional" in the sense that not all instructors take roll, but that if you opt out, your grade will eventually reflect your attendance. We did lots of fun stuff that year together. Beach days, a Halloween party in which we bobbed for apples, an Oscars Party, late-night study sessions, and cookie baking in our illegal toaster oven. I convinced my bible study to drive all the way to Sacramento to get ice cream at Leatherby's, went to Monterey with good friends for the weekend, and fell in love with Jesus all over again. Freshman year was great because I could re-invent myself into anything I wanted. I'm not sure if I changed too much, but I did choose into things and made them my own. My faith grew exponentially being away from home for the first time. I got to see what life (and faith) was outside of my home and as an "adult."


These are my roommates freshman year (L-->R): Emily, Ariel, Ashley, Me, Danielle, Sarah, Sam, and Alex.


Matt, Aaron, Emily, and I on the roof of the Monterey Hotel. We snuck up there.
My roommate Alex's good friend Macy came to visit us for a week. They "found" a table on the way home. This is how we improved it:


Macy and Sam painting the table in our bathroom. We all contributed to the masterpiece.


This is Sarah and I on our last night together. I slept on the couch the night she left because it was too strange to sleep in my room alone.



And how could I forget my mission trip to Costa Rica?! At the end a whole bunch of us got baptized. Such a phenominal way to end the trip.

Sophomore Year:

We moved from the freshman dorms into the apartments reserved for mostly sophomores. We lived with a French Foreign Exchange student, Constance Martin. She was a fabulous addition to the five of us crazies, and she is coming out this summer for two weeks to visit us all! This was my first year as a bible study leader with InterVarsity Christian Fellowship, I found a church that I loved, and learned what it means to fight and reconcile well. God really taught me to love people, and put people in my life who were hard to love, just so I could practice on them.


We hosted an 80's themed birthday party for our friend April. Here we all are (L-->R): Ashley, Constance, Danielle, Ariel, Emily, and Me.



We adopted a roommate second semester. Jennifer Schedler was added to the mix and has stuck through the madness with us! Here she is on St. Patty's Day. Emily's family hosted us for traditional corn beef and cabbage. Yum!


I got in my very first car crash! I was driving Emily's in the parking lot and some chick backed right up into me! There we all are.


Here we are, moving out. This was during the kitchen packing session.

Junior Year:

We moved into a condo that was literally backed up to campus. There is a back gate, so we still walk to school every day. I had surgery over the summer to remove bunions from both my feet, and spent the summer back on OrangeVale. This is the year that Jennifer officially moved in with us. We decided to keep with the tradition of having dinners together. We got a taste of what a real "home-on-your-own" feels like, and liked it very much. Its like we officially became a family. My favorite class was California Ethic Literature with Bob Coleman. He kicked my butt.



My feet became bunion-less. There they are.


Jen, Ashley, and I all have birthdays in August. Our friends threw us a surprise party! We all had party hats. This is a picture of me blowing out Jen's candles.


My friend Juliann and I took an Art History class on Rodin's sculptures. Here we are at my favorite museum, The Palace of Fine Arts in San Francisco. Juliann is in between the Berghers of Calais.


This is the third year that my family has participated in the Run to Feed the Hungry. Or, as my father refers to it, the Shuffle to Feed the Hungry: you and your closest 30,000 friends.


Some friends and I walked to Golden Gate Bridge over our Intercession courses. This is Caroline and me!



We helped host a Super Bowl party for InterVarsity. Over 85 people came to one house! They were on the floor, on the stairs, upstairs, in the kitchen, in the dining room, in the study room, EVERYWHERE! We definately were breaking fire code. Ashley, Juliann, Caroline, Danielle and I were wiped out!


Matt, Ariel, and I went crazy over midterms. This was a really late night. At least I think it was.

Senior Year!

I spent the summer in McDermitt, Nevada working with Sierra Service Project. What a great summer! I came back to start my final year at SSU. Thankfully we didn't have to move, we had the pleasure of staying in our same house. Again I was taught how to love people well. I learned how to manage my time more efficiently, and found the importance of resting on a regular basis.


My staff for the summer (L-->R): Kelley, Marty, Lisa, Amy, Me, Jennifer, Mallory, Philip.


I turned 21! My roommates took me out to drinks at Applebee's and then made me dinner. Wonderful! This is Ariel, Danielle, and me.

We took a road trip! We went down to San Diego for Labor Day weekend. Here we are on the beach.

Our roommate Danielle got engaged! Here we are helping her shop for the dress. Rebbecca, Emily, Me, Brenna, Ava, Ashley, Jen, Jessy, and the bride. Just a few weeks after this, Emily got engaged too! Its that time of life, I suppose.



We went wine tasting! Korbel was our destination.



Three of us went on another road trip! We visited Jessy in Pine Valley. The four of us will be spending one more year together.

That is it for now! More final photos to come later. Graduation, Chapter Camp, and the Dominican Republic are coming up. Keep you all updated!

Monday, May 11, 2009

Poverty Quote of the Day

"No matter how poor my neighbors may be I cannot define them by their poverty and their needs, because God defines them first as His children."

Thank you, Josh Maxwell.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

The Hunt for Perfection

Over spring break my two of my roommates and I took a road trip down to Southern California. One of our first stops was Pismo Beach, CA, a favorite spot on the central coast.

It was Jen's mission to find sand dollars--lots of sand dollars. As many as she could. So we woke up early the next morning in time to scope out the beach during low tide. The shore seemed to expand for miles the surf was out so far. Slightly overcast but still warm, it was a great day for shell hunting.

As we made our way down the steep stairs to the beach, I could not help myself from looking at the wood stairs beneath me, not only for the sake of concentration, but because it fascinated me as well, the way that the steps before me had been worn into divets and how the rail had been smoothed out by thousands of hands asking for its support. Those people too had been on missions.

Our feet finally hit sand and we kicked our sandals off, elated that the beach was so empty. Jen pulls out her baggie and diligently starts looking. Ashley and I are more enticed by the caves nearby and explore those for a while. But soon we were hunting along with Jen, turning over anything that looked slightly like a sand dollar with our toes. More often than not, we would dig our toes into the sand only to unearth a rock or a different shell.

At last I found one. I exclaimed with joy as I pulled it from the sand and shout to the others. As they come over to inspect it, their joy is not the same. "Its not a whole one," they say. "We only want ones that aren't broken."

Undeterred by this, I slip the half sand dollar into my pocket. I still think that it is pretty and that it will remind me always of our trip. But more importantly, it started me thinking about perfection.

Why is it something that we strive so hard to find, and yet are never able to attain it? Are we not imperfect beings? Will we not fail? Will we not sin? Will we ever be perfect?

I think that a lot of people put too much pressure on themselves to be perfect. The perfect student. The perfect daughter. The perfect employee. The perfect friend. The one who always looks perfect. These simply are masks we all wear. An acquaintance of mine says that perfection is a lofty goal. I think its a foolish one.

If we as humans are perfect in and of ourselves, we have no need for a perfect God (or any god at all). If there is no need for redemption, there is no need for a redeemer.

But I don't think that people are perfect. In fact, I know that people aren't and if they say they are they are lying. I think the problem is that we never admit to this.

How relieving it is to know that GOD is perfect. My grateful heart cannot help but to rejoice in the light of the knowledge that it doesn't matter if I am broken. It doesn't matter if the sand dollar is only half there. The one that created both it and I can redeem anything that I do to mess things up. God is bigger than my imperfection and has the ability to make all things new. For it is in Him that I am made perfect, through the continual redemption and forgiveness of Jesus. Praise the LORD for His unfailing love!


This God--His way is perfect; the promise of the LORD proves true; He is a shield for all those who take refuge in Him.

Psalm 18:30

My beautifully broken sand dollar.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Farewell, Dear Friend!

My good friend Aimee left for Cambodia today. Please pray for her safety and heart as she stays there for a year to work with the Chab Dai Coalition. Many blessings on her time there!

The last time I saw Aimee. We had lunch at the Sunflower!

Monday, April 20, 2009

I Am...

The past four years I've really tried to find out who I am. Moving away from home and having the opportunity to re-invent myself Freshman year was quite refreshing. I'm not sure that a lot a lot changed, but these are some of the following things I think I am:
  • a student
  • an English major
  • a daughter
  • a sister
  • a friend
  • a good listener
  • a roommate to five wonderful women
  • someone who loves to sing
  • a writer
  • a baker
  • an aspiring seamstress
  • a dreamer
  • someone who enjoys being crafty
  • a bargain hunter
  • smiley
  • a big nerd who really enjoys editing people's papers
  • a feeler who is really bent out to be a thinker (thanks Myers-Briggs)
  • someone who doesn't really like being defined by tests but succumbs to it when it seems necessary
  • a former swimmer
  • a student assistant at the front desk of Administration and Finance
  • a closet fashonista
  • someone who loves knowledge but sometimes places too much value in it
  • a leader with InterVarsity Christan Fellowship
  • a lover of (not-so) guilty pleasures
  • a lime popsicle connoisseur

As I sit and think about all these things I cannot help but to wonder if this is how I should be looking at myself. Is this the real me? Am I seeing past the rose-colored glasses? What about the Tamsen who can be too much of an idealist and tires herself out far too often? What about the Tamsen who tries to think the best of people and wears her heart on her sleeve which can often lead to a bruise? What about the Tamsen who cannot stand when people bicker over silly things and makes snide remarks with her sharp tongue? What about the rationale-loving Tamsen who can be so heartless at times? Am I allowed to re-invent these parts?

Shouldn't all these things simply fade away in the glory of the One who made me?

2 Corinthians 5:17:

Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature; the old things passed away; behold, new things have come.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

We're Growing Up.

I'm graduating in May. Today I officially agreed to dedicate the next year of my life to campus ministry with InterVarsity Christian Fellowship at Sonoma State University. It feels good to know what I'm doing for the next year!
I was just replying to an email my friend Aimee sent me and reflecting on life. She just graduated from Cal Baptist in December and is leaving in early May for Cambodia. She will be working with an organization that combats human trafficking on a variety of levels. It seems like Aimee and I haven't really known each other that long, but in reality we've been good friends for five years.
Our friends from SSU Katie and Phil just got engaged last Thursday. I was talking to our friend Heather and she has known Katie since 7th grade. She said all she could think about when Katie told her was the first time they met in junior high and Katie was running around the hallways all awkward in leggings.
Earlier this week I was thinking about the first time I met all my current roommates. Freshman year, we were all scared and strange little 18 year olds on their own for the first time, looking for a friend. There is no way we would have though that some of us would spend the next four years together. How much I will miss the ones who are moving on!
O how the Lord has blessed me with good friends and wonderful fellowship in my life! He is growing us into men and women who follow after the calling of the Gospel. Aimee will literally be setting the captives free with her ministry in Cambodia. Phil, along with one of my long-time roommates Ashley, will continue to preach the Gospel of repentance and forgiveness of sins at Santa Rosa Junior College. My roommate Jen is choosing to enter into Sonoma's Multiple Subjects Credential program in hopes of creating change through early education. By the love of the Lord and following the movements of the Spirit the world will be changed.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Good Good

This past week I've just been reminded time and time again how good God can be.

Its been really nice.

I like these reminders.

How has God been Good in your life recently?